Post Surgery Recovery - 1 Week Post-Op

It has been 1 week since my surgery.  Today I saw the nurse and had my drain removed now that I am outputting less than 30 mL/day.  We had to drive into MGH Boston but it was worth it to get that pesky drain out.  The nurse cut the stitches then had me take a deep breath and exhale as she pulled it out.  I didn't feel a thing and couldn't understand why she wanted me to keep breathing until I saw how long the tube was - must have been ~1ft inside my arm!  I can definitely feel a difference now that it is out as I have much less discomfort and "bruised" feeling.  My range of motion is good, I can raise my arm >90deg which the nurse said is above normal.  I'm also able to stop my antibiotics and today was the first time I did not take any Tylenol for pain.  Having the drain out also meant I get to drive again just in time for my present to myself - a cobalt blue 2001 Porsche 911 Carrera 4 Convertible - and get it registered at the Mass RMV.  To celebrate Gary and I drove it to dinner tonight with the top down and enjoyed some of the last great summer weather.  We are planning to continue driving it in Sept/Oct before the weather turns.  It is a SUPER fun car to drive!  Going to need some help naming this car or coming up with a good personalized plate. 

I also want to thank my family and friends for all the well wishes and support I have received since surgery - your support gives me the strength to heal, go to doctors appointments, work, and keep my spirits up as I complete this next phase in my treatment plan.  A huge THANK YOU!  Still waiting on the pathology report to confirm they got it all, should have that by end of this week.

Live Your Dreams Now, Not Tomorrow

Surgery Complete

It was a long day but the surgery is complete!  I arrived at MGH Boston at 9am where they took me in and prepped me for surgery.  First they inserted the guide wires.  Definitely not my favorite thing to do.  Basically they compress you in the mammogram machine then poke you with needles to the markers left from the biopsy.  Then they insert the guide wires and pull the needles out.  The wires are taped to your chest and covered in a bandage until you go in for surgery.  That whole process took about 45 minutes.  Once complete we began the waiting game.  My surgery was scheduled for noon but they did not take me in until 4:15pm.  Erik came by and stayed with us for a little while and took Gary to dinner.  I came out of surgery at 7pm, woke up in recovery at 8pm, then they took me to my hospital room at 9pm where I finally got to see Gary and eat (crackers).  Gary had gotten a call from the surgeon telling him the surgery went well.  Coming out of surgery I didn't have much pain, just stiffness and tightness in my underarm plus numbness in my first 3 fingers of my left hand.  The stiffness in my fingers disappeared by the next morning when I was discharged.  The surgeon also removed my port.

I was discharged at 11am and am now resting at home.  On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the highest, my pain is about a 3.  I stopped taking the oxycotin and am just on Tylenol now as needed for pain.  I try not to push it, so will take some before bed or if I'm going to be out a while.  I'm also on an antibiotic, a probiotic (preventative since I had my appendectomy last December), and a laxative for the oxycotin.  Tomorrow I'll be down to just the Tylenol, antibiotic, and probiotic.  

A visiting nurse will come by tomorrow to check my drain.  They put me in a really cool pink front closure sports bra over the bandages and drain site.  The drain bag is latched to a special hook on the bra so it's supported and doesn't dangle.  Definitely designed by a woman.  Twice a day I have to empty the drain by uncapping the top and squeezing it into a measuring cup.  When I get down to 20-30 mL a day I can schedule with the surgeon to have the drain removed.  Tonight I drained 40 mL so I still have a way to go.  I'll admit it was a little creepy at first draining a bag connected to your arm, but the engineer in me got past it.  Right now the fluid is a reddish color, but should turn yellow then white eventually.  While I have the drain I'm not allowed to drive.  In ~1.5 weeks I should be able to get the drain removed.  

As part of my rehab I will start a stretching exercise where I walk my fingers up a wall.  I should be able to go higher each day.  I will not start any real exercises until the drain is removed.  In 48 hrs I can take the bandages off and expose the steri strips.  In ~2 weeks the steri strips will start to peel and I can remove those too.  

At this point I may be cancer free!  I will know for certain when I get my pathology report in ~10 days.  Now that my surgery is complete I can setup my appointment with the radiologist to get in for marking for my upcoming radiation.  As one radiologist told me, up to this point it has been about treating my cancer, now it will be about preventing recurrence.  Excited to have the surgery behind me - two legs of the triathlon down, one to go!

Laughter and fun care package from my co-workers

Ready for discharge from the hospital

Two Days Before Surgery

Just when you start feeling better and things are getting back to normal, it's time to gear up for surgery.  I think the hardest part in this whole journey is picking yourself back up again after every knockdown.  This week I did my P90X workouts - only legs and only half the workout.  I couldn't do the 90sec wall squats or complete the single leg wall squats I've lost so much muscle mass.  But I was happy that I got sore after the first workout and it cleared after the second.  Glad to see my body heal and recover.  Going to need that with surgery this week!

My MRI came back good - my 4cm tumor in my breast has shrunk to 1cm and my 3cm tumor in my lymph node has shrunk to almost non-existent.  The mammogram was not helpful (tissue is too dense) and they did not do an ultrasound (the MRI is more precise).  The surgeon will remove the remaining tumor, the dead tumor cells, plus some margin.  They will use something called guide wires plugged into the center of the tumors which they hook in during a mammogram.  Does not sound fun.  This will help the surgeon pinpoint the location and give her the best chance of success removing all the cancerous cells.  Once I'm wired I will undergo the surgery.

I'm having mixed feelings about the surgery.  While I'm happy I will finally have all the bad cells removed, the risk of a follow on surgery to get the margins and the 40% chance I will have to live with lymphadema are hard to swallow.  I've never been one to take meds, even pain killers.  I stopped pain meds 1 day after my appendectomy.  Need everyone's prayers that this surgery will allow full arm movement, no residual lymphadema, and no damage to my nerves or long term numbness in my arm.  I keep remembering what another survivor told me - one day at a time.  For now I am just trying to trust in my doctors, enjoy this beautiful summer weather with my wonderful husband and kids, and crossing a few Boston items off my bucket list.  Mom flew back today too to help out while I'm recovering.  It's go time again!

Quick business trip to Pratt &Whitney sporting my new wig

Dinner at Gibbet Hill Grill with our visiting Texas friends

Love and Support

This week has been incredible.  I've been on this cancer journey for 4 months now and the continued outpouring of love and support is just amazing.  To start the week I received a wonderful gift - a quilt about "What Cancer Cannot Do" with patches of handwritten letters of encouragement from our Texas family.  The next day I received a bouquet of roses from one of Brady's classmates parents who had just learned of the news.  Truly I am blessed!

  Support From Far and Near

This week I also learned of the news that my Aunt Rose has been diagnosed with the same type of breast cancer.  Fortunately they found it on her annual mammogram and were able to diagnose it early.  She will have an MRI this week then meet with her surgeon about removal options all of which will be followed by radiation.  She called me to tell me how much she had learned in the last ~2 weeks going through this process, how she's been thinking of me, and how the chance of recurrence doesn't change much whether you have a lumpectomy or mastectomy.  We may be recovering from surgery the same week!  Our love and prayers to Aunt Rose for strength and healing as she begins this process.  What a heck of a 2016 for her and Skippy (Skippy is currently in a neck brace after a fall at work, multiple lacerations to his head and face, and 3 broken vertebrae). 

Sometimes you just have to put mind over matter.  Today, 6 days after completing my 8th and final chemo treatment, I went for a run.  I won't kid you it was hard.  I have put on ~10 lbs in chemo and lost probably the equivalent if not more in muscle mass.  I ran for 4 minutes, walked for 3 minutes, ran another 2 minutes, and walked another ~10 minutes back to my car.  My legs felt like lead.  My back was stiff.  I'm sure I looked awkward but hey you have to start somewhere.  

Speaking of awkward, since I have to travel for a business meeting with my customer and supplier later this week (first biz trip since starting chemo), I attempted to draw on eyebrows and give my face some resemblance of professional.  Apparently brow pencils are for filling in gaps, not drawing on new eyebrows altogether.  This is going to take some practice.  Here is a time when I would have benefited from a female sibling LOL.

Surgical Consult

Met with the surgeon today to lay out the surgical plan.  We are still planning for a lumpectomy and auxiliary node dissection of the lymph nodes.  She ordered another MRI scan to help her determine the margins around the tumor to remove.  Once that is complete we will set a date for the surgery but right now looking at the third week of August.  Following the MRI I will have another mammogram and ultrasound just ahead of my surgery.  Some good news and bad news, I don't need my ovaries out as my genetic testing was negative (huge relief) however they are planning to take ~15 lymph nodes from under my left arm which is higher than the 3 we were planning and will involve drains for ~1.5 weeks after surgery as well as some PT.  It will take up to ~1 year to determine how this impacts numbness and swelling in my arm, but should have full muscle movement.

Surgery will be at MGH Boston where they will conduct the procedure, and also remove my port, and I will stay overnight for observation.  After that I get to come home and will be out of work for about a week in recovery.  It takes ~10 days for the surgical path report to come back then I will meet with the surgeon again to review the results and remove the drains.  If the margins are clear I won't need additional surgery.

If timing works out I will have my surgery the third week of August, start radiation the third week of September, putting this behind me by Veterans Day in November.  I will likely have to take the Tamoxifen (estrogen suppressant pill) for ~5 years after this ordeal but all this should put me at <5% chance recurrence of the disease.

While the Taxol chemo did take out my eyebrows, some eyelashes, and my nose hair, surprising to find the hair on my head is starting to grow back.  I am now showing peach fuzz.  I'm ready to get back into a workout regiment as well ahead of surgery to give me strength for the upcoming phases of this triathlon.

Last Chemo Treatment

Had my last chemo treatment today, we thought this day would never come!  It was fairly routine.  My labs were good and white blood cell count above normal meaning I would not have to go back tomorrow for the Neulasta shot.  The visit with the oncologist went well too, my echo-cardiogram from last week results were all positive, no visible issues with my heart from treatments.  I meet with the surgeon tomorrow to lay out the surgery plan, and won't meet with my oncologist again until after surgery to review the pathology report.

We made a special gift for the nurses who have been so kind and generous throughout this process.  We made a thank you poster and the boys used finger paint to paint handprints on it - thanks for giving our mom a hand!  We also took them some tasty treats.  The nurses all enjoyed the poster and the treats, and gave mom lots of hugs after finishing my treatment.

I also had a very big surprise at my treatment - a stop in from an old friend from Texas!  Erin Davis was driving from Maryland (Pax River) to Maine to pick up his girls after meeting their new baby cousin.  It's a long drive, but he went out of his way to stop in at MGH West to say hello.  His timing was great, I had ~30min left in chemo so we got to hang out for a bit, catch up, and give him a break from all the driving.  I wouldn't be able to make it through this process without all my supporters!

In the spirit of the 2016 Rio Olympics kicking off this week, this now completes the first leg of my cancer "triathlon".  Finishing chemo I have completed the hardest or "swim" portion of the triathlon, now I move into surgery the "bike" portion, then eventually radiation the "run" portion. Makes it 4 months down, ~3.5 months to go.  Reflecting back on chemo I had no idea what I was in for.  You can read about it, talk to others that have been there, but until you experience it and the side effects on your body you really don't know.  Like raising children, treating cancer takes a village.  I am incredibly thankful for my Mom giving up her summer to spend it here taking care of me and my family, my Dad and Terry for bringing meals or taking kids when we need the help, my brothers for visiting and bringing humor to any situation, and all my geographically dispersed friends and family for all the well wishes and care packages and yummy snacks that keep my house filled with positive energy and help convince me I can beat this - thank you all!  One big step down, two to go!